Hey guys i think i've found my calling in life but i may need help....

i'm in Toronto trying to retire and figure out how to give up messengering (FOR THE GAZZILLIENTH TIME) so im endeavouring to experience something and write a story about it.... Then see where i end up (sorry but ive been so excited that i havent really slept for a week (without taking drugs)). So far a lot of bad things have happened but I've managed to have the best time of my life so forgive me if things seem a little hard to follow (but putting all my thoughts on this site makes me happy)....

I have been trying to create boundaries in my life for a long time so as to start a fresh a few things in my life may have happenned for a reason.... I couldn't focus at my major talent in life (messengering) and focus on other (more important) things at the same time i was MESSED UP AND GREEDY. I tried hard to change and give it up but i havent been able too.... SO LISTEN UP I HAVE NOW OFFICIALLY EMBRACED THAT I AM A MESSENGER AND THE WAY THAT I DO MY JOB IS A TALENT AND IT WILL BE A PART OF ME FOREVER! I WILL TRY AND TRANSFER MY MESSENGERING TALENTS INTO EVERYDAY LIFE!

Its time to throw away the most important things i have ever owned and officially rely on my talents then see where it takes me.

I AM NOW OFFICIALLY HOMELESS AND WILL BE UNTIL I LAND IN MY FEET!

HERE ARE THE RULES FOR MY RESEARCH TO LEARN HOW TO FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT TO DO IN LIFE SO LISTEN UP!!!!

1. I will try and give people back what they give to me.....
2. I'm trying not to use anything that has too much hold on me an makes me greedy (MONEY)...
3. I am relying on my reputation to look after me....
4. I will be endeavouring to utilise my greatest asset (communication).
5. I will remain true to my messenger roots forever.
6. I will have faith and trust in the things that are most important to me.... my family, my friends (potential family and friends also).
7. I will never turn my back on the young and troubled individuals or messengers that attempt to ride a bike (

IT IS NOT A CYCLISTS/PEDESTRIANS FAULT IF A MOTORIST DOES NOT REALISE HOW EASY IT IS TO RUN OVER THEM (THE MOTORIST JUST NEEDS HELP).

These are my long term goals .....

1. Help stop people from abusing the privlige of driving a MOTOR VEHICLE.
2. Educate messengers, cyclists, pedestrians and motorvehicles about how to safely deal with traffic.
3. Make people realise that it is better to hurt yourself than someone else (thats why we ride bikes and don't drive cars.)
4. Have a shitload of fun on the way (hopefully with my family, messengers, cyclists, pedestrians and motorvehicle users).
5. Try and help everyone in life (have no enemies).
6. Continue the relationship with my best friend FOREVER! (thats you Nina.)
7. Make people fitter, healthier, more caring and less dangerous (make people have so much fun that they consider not relying on oil)....
8. Work WITH people instead of AGAINST.
9. TAKE EVERYONES CONSIDERATIONS AND FEELINGS INTO ACCOUNT.
10. MAKE PEOPLE REALISE YOU SHOULDN'T BE SCARED WHEN YOU RIDE A BIKE.....

I will be ATTEMPTING to utilise all of the above skills rules and goals for the rest of my life.....

Areas that i may need some help with.....

1. Research (seeing and experiencing things for myself.)
2. Finding the time.....
3. Figuring out how to get buy without relying on money (learning how to barter).
4. gaining Resources.... (use or purchase of computers, laptops storing information and statistics etc...)
5. Putting food into my mouth...
6. making enough money to put food in my mouth.
7. Discipline (as in not returning to a job i've loved for so many years)

Sorry guys i'm in La Carrere Cycles (Toronto) and nadir might need some help setting stuff up.... He says hi! so i have to go soon....

At the moment i am seeking advice from anyone and everyone (Following retired and sucsesfull messengers around and see how they do things was what i did today.).....

And i am considering setting up or maybe teaming up with Charities or possibly starting one of my own..... Getting a quiet part time job close to traffic may also be another option (not messengering for a while because i need to keep my head clear.)

My short term goal is to hang out with experienced retired messengers and ride bikes in Whistler (other side of Canada).... Then lock myself in a room for six months and get my 10 years of experience onto paper....

PLEASE LOG IN TO THIS SITE OR EMAIL ME WITH ANY OPINIONS, COMPLAINTS, ADVICE, QUESTIONS AND SUGGESTIONS IT WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED!

doddrag@hotmail.com

Gotta Go Cya x

Doddsy